Day 147

The end is in sight!

The word "homecoming" is actually being mentioned in emails and recordings from the Family Readiness officer. Such a simple word with such a powerful and emotional meaning.

The months have drug by but at the same time I have stayed so busy it seems they moved by rather quickly. So many things I wanted to have done before he gets home. I know I will never finish all the to-do-list in time. But I'm ok with that. Its only purpose really was to keep me busy and it has definitely done that!

As we prepare for homecoming some common concerns I hear circulating are, "what if he's changed?", "I've changed what if he doesn't like this new me?"

I can see where some may feel insecure. I know in the past few months I've changed. I've learned to step back and take a look at the big picture, something I always thought I was good at doing anyway but turns out that perhaps I wasn't. I've learned not to sweet the small stuff - and for a over-anal Virgo that has been quite difficult.

I'm sure Marine has changed to. I mean I can't even begin to imagine the things he has to do or things he has seen.

But at the end of the day he is still him and I am still me. Everything will be fine. Sure it will take some readjusting on both our parts, but that's normal I suppose.

Now to just keep staying busy so that the days will continue to pass quickly!

Day 138

I read the news way to much and research way to much on where Marine is at.

At least that journalism degree is coming in handy for something.

During this deployment I have made several wonderful new friends; all girlfriends/fiancées/wives of guys that with Marine. I have also learned that not all girls are nice and instead like to create drama. But that can be true in any situation where there is to much estrogen. lol

Marine's unit's satellite phone is broken but he was able to call a few days ago when he was at another base.

It's always so great to hear his voice. He has lost 20 pounds since he's been gone (and believe me he didn't have 20 pounds to lose). The weight-loss is due to wearing all that gear and walking around in the hot desert patrolling. Needless to say I plan on fatting him up, a mission that will start as soon as he steps foot of that bus.

So many other details I would like to say but they must wait till he returns home (OPSEC rules). So for now I am left alone with my rambling thoughts.

Still just taking it a day at a time. Counting down the days.

Another day down, another day closer.
 

Day 125

I miss you everyday.

Just some more than others.

That doesn't sound right.... but you know what I mean.

It be nice just to have a hug.

Such a beautiful summer day out! If you were here I'm sure we would have plans to go trail riding or fishing after work. Perfect day for either.

Not much longer and you will be home and we can get back to doing all those fun things together!

Stay safe, Love you!

Day 123 ~ Part 2

I almost forgot.........

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY

I look forward to spending many more happy years together!

Day 123

Deployment sucks.

There I said it.

Silly, but its kinda nice just to say it out loud.

I'm so proud of you and the difference you are making and the positive impact you are having on others lives.

Yet at the same time I am ready for you to come home so that we can start on our life together.

I'm getting ready to order your homecoming banner. I know, I know --- it's a little early. But I want to make sure it gets here in time.

At the same time I'm almost afraid to order it. I'm afraid it might jinx us. I'm afraid to plan for the future to much till you get back. Once you get home I know everything will be ok. Till then I'm just taking things a day at a time.

I love you. Stay safe!

Day 122

Happy 4th of July!!!

I am proud of you each and everyday. Not all heroes wear capes..... mine wears camo and carries a gun. lol That should make you laugh.

Come home soon!

Next 4th we will be celebrating by cooking out and watching fireworks. I can't wait!

I'm so ready for time just to fly by and for you to be getting off that bus.

Day 120

What a wonderful, unexpected "date" night!

Being able to actually have time to talk about normal, everyday stuff was wonderful!! It made me miss you more. 

You have been gone 120 days and this was the first time I heard you say something negative. 

That part worried me a little. But I know that there is always negative stuff going on and that you just don't want to tell me because you don't want me to worry. I'm glad you told me. I worry anyway, no matter what you say.

I read to much anyway. I know to much information as it is without you telling me.

Continue to stay safe. 

I know your upset about somethings that are out of your control. And some people are just dishonest - plain and simple. What goes around comes around though. 

Just stay positive and you will be home before you know it. 

At least that's what I keep telling myself..................